Fight or Flight It!
Fight or flight! Your body immediately picks a side when you are going through an experience that feels traumatic. Majority of the time depending on the situation my body picks flight. Last week, I had an experience and my body immediately felt like it was in danger. It’s crazy what your brain tells you to protect you from any real or perceived threat. I immediately grabbed my luggage and decided I would ask questions later. 😂
It all happened so quickly and all I could think was let me flee (flight) from this situation and put myself in a more controlled environment to feel comfortable.
Fast forward another 10 minutes or so I calmed down some and told myself I could practice a healthier response to calm my body and brain so that I could make a more logical decision. So, instead of fleeing (flight) from the situation I went for a walk and calmed down. A nice brisk walk was a great way to calm my environment, get some fresh air, and slow the internal noise in my head. I understand my body’s ability to respond to situations to alert me to fight or flight will vary depending on the level intensity to protect me. Which is - great, but sometimes it’s okay to calm down and respond differently.
Do you tend to fight or flight when you encounter situations?
#permissiontothinkdifferently
What's in a Name?
I saw on social media the other day someone decided to go from a nickname to their full name. The reasoning behind it was they initially wanted others to be able to pronounce their name easier, but they prefer to be called by their birth name. I thought this was a great idea as I’m learning to give people to grow, change and evolve.
Storytime: I remember in grade school when my teachers took attendance I always knew when they were about to call my name because they would stop and look confused. In their defense it didn’t help that due to my first name containing 9 letters and my last name containing 8 there was a letter or two cut off from my first name on the roll. So, they weren’t sure if they should say Lawrence or Lawrencia. 😩
Fast forward to now, people occasionally happily share with me my name is difficult and to their comments I'm often unsure of what to say because like you all reading this - I didn't have any input in my name. Our names are given to us by parents or someone else as we arent even old enough to chat at birth.
I truly believe you can’t even get to know someone until you know their preferred name. The best thing to do is to ask them - that’s it!
Processing…
I’ll say this and I’ll probably keep saying it- therapy is hard, sometimes. All weekend I’ve been trying to process things I discussed with my therapist on Friday. Additionally, every other thing I’ve listened to from sermons to mentor calls and conversations with a couple of friends compounded off that conversation. 😭
I will say this for starters when God wants to get my attention about anything it may start gently, but if I miss the cues and don’t do the work, then it will hit me like a ton of rocks. #woosah
In case you are new to my blog, one of the ways I process things is through conversation and my writing. So welcome aboard.🤗
After a combination of many things this weekend, I’ve realized sometimes you have to ensure you embrace how God has wired you.
We are wired exactly how God wanted us to be for my unique assignments and purpose.
The more I become clearer on my assignment, it allows me to produce speed and execute my purpose quicker because I can easily say yes or no to different things which don’t align.
- Dr. Darius Daniels
God graced me for every assignment he wants me to fulfill even if it feels weird to someone else and that’s okay.
I’ll dive deeper into this with a later blog, but enclosing we all have unique things which bother us from social justice issues, the abuse of animals, orphans, lack of systems in organizations and so much more! Lean into what bothers you as you may be able to solve a problem that others don’t see!
“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5 NLT
What’s something which bothers you which no one else seems to notice?
Floppy Feedback Part 2
In case I haven’t shared sometimes I like therapy and others - well therapy is hard. You are continuously looking inward and if I’m honest I’ll like to believe the issue is not me. 😂#whewchile
Story time: So, a few weeks ago I shared a post about feedback, (read this first: https://www.wrenhowsway.com/floppy-feedback/) . After meeting and discussing this story with my therapist she gave me a completely different outlook on my initial post and I knew I had to share a follow-up blog.After sharing the story with my therapist, she first reminded me I volunteered to help with a project. Secondly, she advised once you agree to do something you sign up for every part of it - the good, the bad, and even the unsolicited feedback conversations which may result from it. Y’all! #therapyishard 😂 Definitely, not something I wanted to hear, but I understood her point.
Moral of the story: I’ll be very selective when I volunteer. 😂 That’s it!
Chile, I Got It!
Over the past 18 years, a constant learned behavior was to show up for myself and figure things out. #chileigotit This was a continuous phrase I frequently said myself and heard from others.
#storytime For me, this all started in high school when I quickly had to find a way home from school after working nights in addition to taking care of any of my expenses from school.
Often I was hailed by others as responsible and resourceful. Y’all, I knew all the buses in the area and if the buses weren’t running I requested HR to fix my schedule or would have a couple of trusted friends assist. I’m grateful I figured things out; however, on the flip side it ignited a strong independence in me, which I still struggle to ask for help and even when offered I seldom accept it. 😩
Fast forward to recently my beloved, Mona Lisa, my car is in the shop being repaired, which is fine because I work remote. My sister offered to allow me to borrow her car and a friend even insisted on picking me up for church, but I declined. 😩
While, I could have accepted help I opted to enjoy a peaceful long weekend at home working on my book. However, I did have a deep convo with a friend as they asked probing questions regarding my reluctance to receive help. Of course after this discussion, I’ll have to follow up and discuss this subject with my therapist to see what I want my end goal to be, but in the meantime I’ll take baby steps to receiving help from others.
It would be easy for me to close this blog and suggest for y’all to accept help from others, but I won’t. Instead, I’ll say, we are all on our own healing journey from various things. The beautiful thing is we all arrive at a point of awareness on our own time and guess what - that’s our business!
My pray for you is that when you are ready, you will have trusted friends there to walk with you.
Where no counsel is, the people fall: but in the multitude of counsellors there is safety. Proverbs 11:14 KJV
Meeting People Where They Are…
New Blog: Meeting People Where They Are...
We are all on different journeys in our lives and at different phases of the journey. Some of us may be farther along than someone else in one aspect, while slowly trying to catch up in a different area. It’s easy to expect others to show up for you in different seasons as you anticipate you would show up for them in a similar season. But we are all going through unique situations as we journey through our different life seasons. I’m learning that grace has to be extended in so many different situations and nuances.
I was recently reading this book and the author shared, that while she was sick she had some friends who brought her meals, sent her cards in the mail, went to the hospital, helped around the house, told her jokes and some did absolutely nothing at all! She concluded that no matter how someone showed up for her in a tough season in her life - they would still be their friend.
This book resonated with me because it’s often easy to assume people will show up a certain way to help, but sometimes they don’t! You never know the unknown things people have going on which are not shared with everyone. Even if they don’t have anything going on, we still have to give them grace because maybe they don’t know what to do and that’s okay!Sometimes God allows certain people to come into your life to pour into you in a really difficult season. However, we get to choose how we show up for others. Meet people where they are and allow God, grace and love to cover the difference. I love handwritten cards, so I’m going to be more intentional in sending cards to others.
How are you showing up for the people in your life?
“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:” Ecclesiastes 3:1 KJV
Floppy Feedback
Few people want to be a writer and everyone wants to be an editor. I heard someone quote this last weekend and I knew I had to share it. It’s so much easier to have a red pen correcting things than to be the person who wrote it receiving all the feedback. This is why I’m not that fond of some constructive feedback. Let me clarify. I receive feedback from my editors for my books all the time - which I appreciate. However, it’s the unsolicited feedback from others, which can grind my gears at times.
Y’all remember being in school and there was always one or two people doing the bulk of the work for a group project? The other group members chimed in with feedback or stood at the front of the class for moral support for the group presentation. Yeah, still not cool today.😩
While the settings may have changed unsolicited feedback can be tough to digest - especially if others didn’t contribute and they were able to do so. I wish I could say I have mastered receiving feedback, but I haven’t.
However, the two most valuable things heard from a mentor recently were:
- Always assume positive intent from others.
- Don’t allow others to rush you to respond if you need a moment to process what they are saying.
How do you deal with constructive feedback?
Cauliflower
Yes, you read the title right - “Cauliflower”. If you would have asked me 10 years ago what vegetable I thought would have the biggest impact on my lifestyle change - I would have never guessed cauliflower.
Cauliflower is like the ugly duckling of vegetables that no one wanted unless it was in a vegetable melody with carrots, broccoli, and cheese (y’all know what package I’m talking about) Lol. Seriously, no one was purchasing cauliflowers by themselves to eat or use for anything else.
Cauliflower is the come-back kid! No one was checking for it in high school or college, but baby when it turned 25 cauliflower was in the gym and morphed into a beautiful cocoon! 😂.
But I digress!
Now we have learned there are so many things you can do with cauliflower and it’s low in carbs. You can use cauliflower as rice, mashed potatoes, pizza crust, pasta in Mac and cheese, tortillas, vegetarian steak, vegetarian Buffalo chicken and so much more!
I’m sure you are thinking, I eat cauliflower, but why are you writing about it?
I’m glad you asked. 😂 I wanted to get back to the core of why I started this blog. I can find beauty and meaning in everything! I was making a cauliflower breakfast burrito this morning and thought - wow cauliflower blossomed and wanted to share my perspective.
And I thought everyone can have a beautiful story and blossom just like cauliflower, despite who may have counted you out. It’s never too late to change the trajectory of your life!
Be like cauliflower and blossom!
Hot Mess
Listen can’t nobody tell you about me as I can! Y’all might not know this - but most days I’m a hot mess!
If you look at my social media you may think I have it together, but I don’t.
I’m perfectly imperfect.
I make mistakes.
I get things wrong a lot.
Sometimes I struggle with perfectionism.
I can be impatient. 😬
I tune people out sometimes, unconsciously. 😩🎧
I say things I shouldn’t say. 🤐 I try to have the shut-up spirit, but it doesn’t work all the time.
I take things out of context.
Forget to give people grace, but I want all the grace. #makeitmakesense But it doesn’t. 😂
And so much more!
In the words of my friend Erica…BUT GOD!
In the midst of me being a hot mess, God reminds me that he can use me for his glory to help others! And if he can use me, he can use you as well!
Remember, we are all ministers and can share our faith with others.
Who also hath made us able ministers of the New Testament; not of the letter, but the spirit: for the letter killeth, but the spirit giveth life. 2 Corinthians 3:6
Weekends
Listen, I’m so proud of myself. I don’t know if you ever tried to lose weight, but for me, this is the story of my life. Lol.
Now I’m an avid meal prepper, I’ve been back in the gym for a while and even going 5-6 days every week faithfully in the morning BUT ummmm… Y’all know there’s always a but! Lol.
But…the weekend! 😬
There are brunches, birthdays, baby showers, weddings, parties, reunions, lunches, traveling, meetups, etc…
It’s sad to say I could have such great momentum and progress Monday - Friday and lose it all within a weekend. #sadnews
However, this weekend I was victorious! I not only maintained my progress but the scale decreased! I’m so proud of myself - almost proud enough to order a salad the next time I go out to eat as my entree.
Okay, jk I’m not there yet, but maybe one day!
In the meantime, I’ll continue to celebrate my small wins and keep my healthy habits.
Small progress leads to success!
“Who dares despise the day of small things, since the seven eyes of the Lord that range throughout the earth will rejoice when they see the chosen capstone in the hand of Zerubbabel?” Zechariah 4:10 NIV
Blind Spots
Blind spots is a word that defines itself. We all have blind spots, but it is hard for us to see our own. However, we can usually identify a blind spot in a friend or a family member.
The truth is we are often only able to see ourselves outwardly, but others have a perspective of us inwardly and outwardly and see things we couldn’t possibly see. For example, friends can identify areas, which may need improvement. For example, a friend may inform us that we really aren’t that nice or we are easily angered. Ouch! 🤕 While, the news may be shared in love it can sting a little.
Are you receptive to feedback about a blind spot?
Do you receive it in love or are you easily offended? - which is a completely different blog, I’ll save for a later date. 🤔 Lol.
Blind spots can also be revealed to us if we have a relationship with our Heavenly Father, God. Listen, when God tells me about myself, I realize it is only for my good. Sometimes it can be hard to accept, but I’ve learned in my weaknesses he is always strong. And because his love is perfect for us, it alleviates any fears or anxiety I may experience. I use the information he shares as an opportunity to invite him to help.
“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT
Untitled
Have you ever had a moment where you are trying to write and nothing seems to be exactly what you wanted to say to your audience? That’s this blog here. 😩
I’ve deleted and rewritten it at least 4 times within the last hr and nothing seems to stick, so I’m calling this blog, “Untitled”because it’s coming straight from my heart. My prayer is that it helps someone.
Sigh….. blog attempt #5. 5 the number of grace. The more I read the Bible and chat with God I realize I will always be in a position where I’m becoming. I never want to get to a place where I feel like I arrived with God and there’s nothing more for me to learn about him or myself.
I’ve shared often that I grew up in church my entire life and I’ve heard some great sermons. However, some of the most important things I’ve learned are to read and study the Bible for yourself, have a relationship with God, life is better lived within a trusted community and remain in a student posture.
We are all human and none of us have this thing called life completely figured out. Everyone is capable of making mistakes but God gives us grace freely for ourselves and for us to give to others. As I’m writing this I’m thinking - man I have so much work to do to get better at giving others as much grace as I would want them to give me. But the great thing is… I’m encouraged because I know there’s grace for me to do better! ❤️
Give, and it will be given to you. They will pour into your lap a good measure—pressed down, shaken together, and running over [with no space left for more]. For with the standard of measurement you use [when you do good to others], it will be measured to you in return.” Luke 6:38 Amplified
Soundtrack
Y’all don’t have a clue how many book ideas I have running through my brain at any given time. Currently, I’m working on two book ideas with another three ideas in my head for future books.
I’m not sure if y’all deal with this, but I have to work on this doubting “soundtrack” playing in my head which tries to distract me.
What is a soundtrack? I’m glad you asked. The soundtrack for me is the repeated doubtful words which play in my head like a scratched soundtrack record.
My soundtrack tries to tell me: This book isn’t going to be good enough, no one will purchase it and so much more. All lies!
The interesting thing is if allowed the soundtrack will cause you to doubt things which have never happened. 🤯
How crazy is that? I’m doubting things that have never taken place. When I look at the facts - I’m grateful that I’ve never had a book sell zero copies, but even if I did it wouldn’t be the end of the world. Life would go on.
I’ve learned I have to silence the soundtrack.
How do I silence the soundtrack? I silence the soundtrack with the word of God. Every time this soundtrack tells me I can’t, I find a scripture that says I can. If it tells me, I won’t, I remind myself I’m more than a conqueror.
My Pastor often says, the enemy can’t stop your destiny; however, he can cause you to doubt yourself with the soundtrack playing in your head.
What soundtrack should you replace?
This blog was inspired by, the book entitled, “Soundtracks”, by Jon Acuff.
“Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.”1 John 4:4 KJV
Rotten Fruit
Everything is not as it seems. Some things may appear fruitful and healthy on the outside, but upon inspection or examining it at the core, it isn’t how they initially seemed.
Y’all I love summer fruit. Watermelon, peaches, plums, cherries and so much more. Last week, I ordered some peaches for my weekly grocery pick-up. I was so excited to bite into this delicious fruit or so I thought.
I picked up the fruit and immediately washed it off. After this, I noticed the top of the fruit looked different than normal. It was very dark, almost black and the outside of it was much softer than normal - like squishy. I broke it open and discovered the fruit was rotten. What initially appeared as something with nutritious value wasn’t good for me and could have made me sick.
The moral of the story, everything isn’t as it seems. Examine things past face value. Everything which seems good to you, may not be!
Remember: “People judge by outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”
Scripture: “But the LORD said to Samuel, “Don’t judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The LORD doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7
P.S. I included photos of the fruit.
Saturated
If I sit and think I can come up with an excuse as to why I shouldn’t move forward with anything. For example, there are about 1.2 million bloggers in Dallas and another 200,048 self-published authors. Okay, I made both of those numbers up to give context for this blog, but you get the point. 🙃😂 I will say the number is pretty high for bloggers and authors in Dallas and tremendously even higher if I look at the state of Texas.
The majority of us know someone who has started a blog and may even know an author. If I looked at the number of bloggers or self-published authors it could be intimidating if I allowed. I could easily give a lame excuse that the market is saturated and not share my own stories via a book or a blog. But…saturated or not in the words of the great Toni Morrison “If there's a book that you want to read, but it hasn't been written yet, then you must write it.”
A saturated market can be both an excuse and a fact at the same time. Due to this, I could hope for others to write about my experiences, or I could do it myself. Of course, y’all know me, I will do it myself. No one else has my voice or my distinctive personality which God gave me.
My friends often tease me, all in good fun, and say “Wren Logic” when I share a story. Lol. Even my logical way of thinking is unique to me. It’s the way God made me and I wouldn’t trade it for anything else.
All of that to say, you can either make a “lame excuse” or do what you have been called to do.
Traveling Shoes
Y’all my vacation to Europe, particularly Spain and Portugal was awesome. Cheers to two weeks off from work - like a minimum of two weeks off are needed going forward. Of course, while traveling there are so many observations made. It’s typical to compare your known home country to other places. Also, side note: Just in case y’all wanted to know I loved Portugal more than Madrid. Here are some of my top 10 things I loved:
- The architecture and history. The buildings were colorful and massive.
- Pasteis de natas - delicious dessert in Portugal.
- Castles 😍 - need I say more?
- The fresh food and veggies, even the McDonald’s was amazing.
- The weather in Portugal. 70-75 degrees.
- Walking around and feeling safe.
- Meeting amazing people and experiencing their culture.
- Cooking classes - so many awesome recipes.
- The easiness of travel to other countries. Spain was less than a 2 hr flight.
- Most importantly, the travel crew. We laughed so much and had so many inside jokes.
The trip was a 10 out of 10. Cheers to more vacations!
Obrigada. Ciao!
My Joy List
Because it is Mental Health Awareness Month, I thought I’ll share things that bring me joy! I know oftentimes similar lists are shared and entitled self-care activities, but I was reading a book last week and it referenced activities they enjoyed as a joy list. The idea of calling it a joy list, made me smile, so here are my top 15 joy list items.
- Spending quiet time with God.
- Reading a book in one day.
- A hot bubble bath with candles and relaxing music.
- Sitting outside on the patio (with nice weather), enjoying a nice drink to relax.
- Going to the pool and or beach.
- Reading greeting cards from friends and family.
- Receiving a note or email about how my book and or blog encouraged someone.
- Publishing a book.
- Turning on my out of the office because I have a trip booked.
- Watching a comedy show.
- Game night with friends and family.
- Lying in bed binging a good series on Netflix.
- Teaching others and seeing them have their aha moment.
- Take nap midday!
- Enjoying my favorite snack!
While I could go on and on about some of the things that bring me joy, I want you to think about something on your joy list. In addition to thinking about it, try to practice it tonight or even this week!
What brings you joy?
“Strength and honour are her clothing; And she shall rejoice in time to come.”Proverbs 31:25 KJV
Mindfulness
The month of May is Mental Health Awareness Month. I know there’s a buzzword called mindfulness, but I wanted to share some of my self-work.
I heard this quote recently and I was compelled to share it.
“We don’t fail, we reach our capacity!”Antoinette’s Corner
One thing I’ve tried to be mindful of is my feelings, my emotions, and how I process things. The quote posted above spoke volumes to me because of society’s preconditioned idea of “failure.” I’m working on becoming more mindful of my feelings, emotions, the things I tell myself, and even how I decide to process information.
While I may have initially labeled a task that didn’t meet my expected outcome as a possible failure, I can now say I reached my capacity for that task. I may have more capacity to problem solve, try it again tomorrow or even ask someone else for assistance, but one thing I’m not going to say is I failed.
Also, on my mindfulness journey, I’m conscious of my emotions and try not to let them control me because I know they fluctuate like this Texas weather. For example, before I react because something may have been an initial trigger I’ll have a conversation with a trusted friend or chat with the person. Being mindful for me means just because an action may invoke an initial emotion, it doesn’t mean that emotion is valid. I have to weigh my emotion against what I know about the person, is it a repeated behavior or maybe it is something that needs greater clarification. I’ve learned you can chat all day, but if you don’t have understanding - the words are meaningless.
Listen y’all, we are products of the things we say to ourselves, what we consume, and the people we hang around. What you verbalize you become. What you believe about yourself you become. Being mindful of these things may be the mental health break you need.
Speak Up
I can recall a couple of situations in which I was silent after someone said something offensive- whether they were a friend, family member, or a stranger. Initially, I was silent in some situations because I didn’t know what to say or I didn’t want to blow things out of proportion. I’ve learned silence isn’t always golden and sometimes you have to Speak Up for yourself. Now, this post isn’t condoning rude, combative, or disrespectful behavior; however, sometimes a curious question or a graceful statement can be a solution to reset a boundary or bring up a concern.
Storytime:
I found a nail tech who I love and she’s walking distance from me. Y’all she has nail styles pre-picked out for me. #winwin However, last week I went to get my nails done and learned my nail tech is traveling and unavailable for the next three months. 🙃 While, I’m an avid traveler myself - I’m excited for her, but who’s going to do my nails? With outgrown nails I allowed another tech to do my nails. Initially, I thought they looked fine, but once I went home I realized I didn’t like them. I’ve been getting my nails done for over 10 years, but this is the first time I decided to go back and ask them to change my nails because I was dissatisfied. Once she made the changes, my nails looked so much better.
I know this may be a simple example to some, but that’s exactly the point. Anything you practice gets easier over time. If you can’t tell your nail tech, “Can you fix my nails?” - how can you have a tough conversation about anything else?
A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger. Prov. 15:1
Help
As someone who has lofty goals and ambitions, I’ve come to realize the importance of asking for help. I know so many of us including myself hate asking for help, but let me assure you it’s normal and the way God designed us. He wants us to live our lives within a healthy community of people who can do life with us. So of course like most of my blogs, I have an example for you of when I had to ask for help.
Storytime: On Easter Sunday, I had on a beautiful dress; however this dress had a long zipper down the back. I practiced the night before zipping the dress up successfully by myself. Now Easter morning comes and I’m attempting to zip my dress by myself and I can’t finish it. I even looked up YouTube and TikTok hacks and it wasn’t working. So, at the point I’m frustrated and on top of this, I’m running the risk of being super late for church with a half-zipped dress. I decided to grab my purse, keys and run to my car with my half-zipped dress and figure it out in the church parking lot. While this was not ideal and I don’t recommend this for anyone else - as soon as I pulled up to the church I found a single woman, ran to her car, and asked her to help me zip my dress, which she kindly obliged in assisting me.
I know this may seem like a small ask, but if you can’t ask for help for small things - it will be harder to do when the task is larger. Think of all the ways you could benefit from something someone else knows which could be beneficial to you. It’s nothing wrong with stating, “Hi I need help with… can you assist?